welcome 2010 with =.=

31.12.09

my noisy folk birthday.
steamboat at golden mile.
bugis with no chipmunks.
& an old man lying on the floor bleeding.
lan at somewhere near parklane.
mac at big mac.
sleep.

right, start with the old man.
saw him on the floor not in a pool of blood but bleeding from in between the mouth and nose area.
couldnt been a fight but rather collaspe and probably not die.
i have nothing more to elaborate but it's rather heartrending to witness that scence and walk away knowing i can do nothing to help.
hope the ambulance arrive in time to save him. =[

i remembered how i struggled for air in train while going to work.
how i suddenly lost sight of everything and darkness fall.
i couldnt see. i kept blinking. but i still couldnt see.
i could only hear voices loud, the engine roaring away in the tunnel.
i struggle and nearly black out but the door open i rushed out aimlessly.
my leg hits something and i sat down.
i calm myself and struggle to breathe.
someone hold on to me asking am i alright.
slowly i regain sight and aware of my surrounding.
i nearly collaspe.
i remembered the fear. n i knew it well.
helpless. it beyond the pain of fear of losing somthing but the fear of being so utter helpless.
right, enough of emo-ing.

so for 2009, aint too bad.
except for the accounting bitch.
i think that's all i wanna rant bout.

as for reflection.
i got nothing to reflect.

as for resolution.
wait till chinese new year then consider.

stray: school starting in 4 days. not looking forward to. =[