supper

like mentioned in the previous post.
supper with baokia, ahnehL and mk at dont know where was good.
good cause there have xiaolongbao. so good.
we ended up not knowing where to go after that.
last stop at east coast mac with 10 bucks wasted on "you know what machine".
home was last resort.

alot words to translate feelings cant be found in thesaurus
its just some damn hardcore cornering of shame left
i wish i had the knight name courage still in me
yet to differ it, i knew there isnt when i choose to forsake it.

the worst enemy; memories itself.
to defeat it, i gain no glory.
everyone told a different story but do the same thing.

i kept reminding myself im good.
contented with everything.
yet, monster told me that i wasnt contented.
so what went wrong.?
tell me what?
did i not work hard enough or did i ask for too much??
i know i did work hard. very very hard.
will someone just tell me that im good and recongise my effort?
a place is needed to rest the heart.

time to stop mind wandering or fuck reflecting.
swimming tomorrow has become a maybe
supper made me fat.
how am i going to wear my bikini sia.
its going to be 5am soon. bf is still gaming.



stray: i wish i was honest much more honest with myself.